As I Was, Not As I Am

Laurel is sick. Her roommates want her to get better. How do you help someone who can't afford health care? Does it involve setting a car on fire? As I Was, Not As I Am is mainly about queer roommates, headaches, clubbing, upstairs neighbors, arson, and washing machines; but it's also about love: the kind that would make you do anything for each other.

Contact for full scripts and rights: august.hakvaag@gmail...

Laurel is sick. Her roommates want her to get better. How do you help someone who can't afford health care? Does it involve setting a car on fire? As I Was, Not As I Am is mainly about queer roommates, headaches, clubbing, upstairs neighbors, arson, and washing machines; but it's also about love: the kind that would make you do anything for each other.

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As I Was, Not As I Am

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  • Mal MacKenzie: As I Was, Not As I Am

    This play manages to paint queer characters so specific and tangible they become archetypal. It's this human heart which drives a constant stream of "oh shit oh shit oh no awwww shit" moments up until last scene. We desperately need more plays like this one, where people love each other so much that they blow everything up trying to hold things together.

    This play manages to paint queer characters so specific and tangible they become archetypal. It's this human heart which drives a constant stream of "oh shit oh shit oh no awwww shit" moments up until last scene. We desperately need more plays like this one, where people love each other so much that they blow everything up trying to hold things together.

  • Alison Kozar: As I Was, Not As I Am

    This is such a sweet play filled with love, it's really a joy to read and all the characters feel like people you've known your whole life. It's comforting right up until the end where it rips your heart out, still beating.

    This is such a sweet play filled with love, it's really a joy to read and all the characters feel like people you've known your whole life. It's comforting right up until the end where it rips your heart out, still beating.

  • Meredith Bartmon: As I Was, Not As I Am

    It’s remarkable how developed August’s playwright voice is in relation to their journey. This mature instinct for how to tell stories mixed with youthful ‘fuck-it’ energy is exciting. The characters are relatable, especially the ‘antagonist’ - which feels honest. The play confronts how healthy young people deal with sickness and frailty when hit head-on by the reality of death. The final scenes of the play are so beautiful in their precision of character – Zarya flees, Melissa attacks, and steady Jeanine tries to hold on. While you’re here, I also highly recommend you read Acute Exposure.

    It’s remarkable how developed August’s playwright voice is in relation to their journey. This mature instinct for how to tell stories mixed with youthful ‘fuck-it’ energy is exciting. The characters are relatable, especially the ‘antagonist’ - which feels honest. The play confronts how healthy young people deal with sickness and frailty when hit head-on by the reality of death. The final scenes of the play are so beautiful in their precision of character – Zarya flees, Melissa attacks, and steady Jeanine tries to hold on. While you’re here, I also highly recommend you read Acute Exposure.

Character Information

A note about casting: This play should not be all white. In fact, there should never be more than one white cast member in the play. Not all of these women should be thin, either. There should not be a single thin white ingénue on this stage. Size diversity is a must. The casting of trans women and nonbinary actors is strongly encouraged. The characters are referred to with she/her pronouns, but in the case of casting a nonbinary actor, permission is given to change a character’s pronouns to they/them. This is a celebration of reality.
  • Laurel
    Sweet. Full of life, until it starts leaking out.
    Character Age
    Mid 20s
    Character Race/Ethnic Identity
    Any
    Character Gender Identity
    Femme or non-binary
  • Jeanine
    Stone butch. The non-believer. Stuck.
    Character Age
    Early-mid 20s
    Character Race/Ethnic Identity
    Any
    Character Gender Identity
    Femme or non-binary
  • Zarya
    Right hand man. Logical. Desperate.
    Character Age
    Early-mid 20s
    Character Race/Ethnic Identity
    Any
    Character Gender Identity
    Non-binary,
    Transmasculine
  • Melissa
    Suave. Magnetic. It ain’t over til the fat lady sings.
    Character Age
    Early-mid 20s
    Character Race/Ethnic Identity
    Any
    Character Gender Identity
    Femme or non-binary

Development History

  • Type Workshop, Organization Moxie Arts, Year 2023
  • Type Reading, Organization The Queens Theater, Year 2022
  • Type Workshop, Organization Elephant Room Productions, Year 2020
  • Type Reading, Organization Mad Cow Theatre, Year 2020

Production History

  • Type Workshop, Organization Moxie Arts NY / WP Theater, Year 2023
  • Type Community Theater, Organization Temple Theatre Sidestage, Year 2021
  • Type Community Theater, Organization Elephant Room Productions, Year 2020

Awards

  • Princess Grace Playwriting Fellowship
    New Dramatists
    Semi-Finalist
    2021
  • Women's Voices Festival
    Mad Cow Theatre
    Finalist
    2020